Just Tell Me

Tell me to stop.
Tell me enough already,
that you want me to stop.
Tell me you don’t want my words or my heart.
Tell me that it can never happen
because of the distance or terrible timing
or because of her.
Tell me you could never love me like I deserve.
Tell me you’re not ready.
Tell me to stop being kind,
to stop being so caring and considerate.
Tell me you haven’t missed me the way I’ve missed you.
Tell me I’m making this difficult for you.
Tell me you care about me but can’t do anything about it.

Tell me you love me but can’t.

© Dearest Red 2015

 

To Live by the Sea

to live by the sea
she sees me
crashing waves most of the time
fits of fury
throws herself at my mercy
cower in dunes of sand
she, at the tips of my hand
devours torment paying penance
for celestial sin
painted across her skin
embracing the ache of my wake
currents caressing her curve
slow to a creep
leaving her alongshore in repose

© Dearest Red 2015

 

Fortune Teller

I get it. I feel it. Still learning and looking for my path, but carry on. I will know my way when we find each other. Until then, keep taking it in. Expand. And write for gods’ sake, write.

© Dearest Red 2014

 

Love? Yea right

What can you tell me about love?
Hm..she giggles, I can tell you I love trouble

© Dearest Red 2014

 

I’m just rambling…

I’m trying to be better.
I’m trying to find my way through a world that’s scary and confusing and overwhelming all the time.
My mind races with this never ending list of priorities and demands; hands held out to receive…everybody wants something.
Give me, Sara!
I need this.
I need you to do this.
Can you..
Will you..
When will you get around to..
All these unanswered calls, messages awaiting response
I can’t keep up
How can I find my way when the world wants so much of me?
I cannot find my path..
I cannot find me.

© Dearest Red 2014

 

Which Way is Which

you leave me with nothing but moments alone where I sit and scratch my head in wonder
covering my thoughts in a sea of questions, doubts no doubt, seize my shape
trembling
i…
i.. just.. don’t … know…
you leave me breathless without words, the only thing that makes sense of this senseless world
crippling my thoughts in a sea of questions, doubts no doubt, shape my way
as I hide and try to find solace in anything that will take me
but i…
i.. just.. don’t … know…
you leave me standing here
alone
filling me with more confusion than comfort
where to go from here
i…
i.. just.. don’t … know

© Dearest Red 2014